Ha! I THOUGHT last week was shitty.

Today, two huge things were happening. My husband was waiting to find out if he still had a job, and my mother went in for a simple procedure that is done every day to women all over the world.

By 11:00, everything changed. Brian has lost his job and my mother's ovary is swollen, with cancerous cells also located in her omentum. They are saying cancer. Throwing the word around without waiting for the biopsy. Now, in the past year, they threw this word at her before, and was wrong. All I can hope for is that they are wrong again. False optimism? Probably. It's all I have until the biopsy comes in on Thursday.

I'm just wrecked today. Tired and pretty much in shock. I'm staying strong because I need to.

I just want to lay down in my bed and cry for a bit.