Sunday, December 28, 2008

Making the most of it

I found myself taking more pictures, sitting close, breathing in a lot more this Christmas. I don't mean to be pessimistic, I just want to enjoy all the time that I have with her.

My aunt ended up cutting mom's hair short. I just couldn't do it. I was thankful that she offered because I was trying to find a way to get out of it. What kind of daughter am I that I can't even cut her hair?

Only 10 days to go until the first round of chemo. I called mom and dad today and she wanted to drive to Walmart to get herself a compact cd player to listen to audio books. This is the first time she has driven since the beginning of November. I can't wait to hear how it went. I'm hoping this last week she'll start feeling strong and be able to do stuff she's been wanting to do for the past month!!

I told my aunt that she's leaving too quickly and I think she thinks I'm worried about the chemo (which I'm not, really). It's five hours of trying to keep her entertained as they put toxins in her body to get rid of the cancer. Pretty easy, I guess. We're all relieved that she's not supposed to get sick. We hang on to that with a hope and prayer.

Christmas this year was extra meaningful. It makes all other Christmas' feel as if I should have appreciated them more.

Since we didn't do much on the way of gifts, it made us focus on what is really important. Time with the family. It was wonderful.


Cari said...

sounds lovely ; )

Nancy said...

Don't beat yourself up too much over the hair cut. I wasn't able to do many things I thought I "should" have for my Grandmother, but my sister was more than willing and able to. It hurt a lot at the time - especially since I was so close to my Grandmother - but I was finally able to realize that these were just things I COULD NOT do, and it didn't mean that I loved her any less.

And your mom knows that.

Nichole said...

Cuz, aunt Marshie has the hair flair...she has been cutting our hair for years. Don't sweat the samll stuff-cliche, but oh so true